time warp.

at this particular moment i can see my future. yess, im gona fail every class because i am lazy and i dont give two shits. which is sad. but okay fine ill get to work on it rite now. serioulsy rite now i feel like so happy and so invunerabley confused and kinda sad. well, kinda just regretful. like i think thats the majority of my woes. that im regretful,like i move on,but not reallyyy. like freshman year,i could have been happy but i chose to listen to misscomunications and gossip. and let it pass by me. i wonder if i would have still stayed with the person till this day. i would hope so. i really wish i could mend things with him. i dont hate him and ive think that ive mentioned before that there was too much happienss to hate him. and then this year to..all i had to do was say yes and not wait so long and more miscommunications. man and like im still so stuck on this and like i just want to run up to him like in the movies and just tell him everything..but i know that he wont act like they do in the films. but im not super depressed rite now. im actually just kinda okay. i want to start over. ill take those risks and ill learn. i mean only one year of highschool left and none of it will matter rite? today i laughed so hard twice. it was nice to laugh that much. other than the few things of reget that i have i think i would like to stay in my state. im complacent and i like it. i feel like i could also explode of happiness rite now just talking to my friend...in spanish about music.