h.b.&s.b.

in approxicatmetlllyyy 4 days my best friend/cousin is coming over for at least some of the summer. haha im uber excited. cos like i know at times she can be a butthole but she really is the best. we have so much fun just sitting in cars and listening to gay rave music. and when she comes down...we will finally initialize our band. finally. this summer i have a feeling is gona be a good one. and i really want to sing and play music. i mean ive been in other bands before but they were wishy washy and crap. excpet for maynard! i really think that it could have gone far. haha. i need a phone. and therefore i need a job. so i will apply at the mall i gueess. at forever of vans or some stuff like that. i mean i rarely go to the mall anyways but ive always wanted a job there. and i mean if i can get discounts for clothes and stuff. i mite as well work there. i am starting my health diet tomroow. haha i was really inspired by lisa. she looks soo good! man i cant wait till my hair grows out. and i swear THIS SUMMER I WILL GO TO THE BEACH AS MUCH AS I CAN. i love it there and last summer i only went once.

i think im gettting over it. i really do. i find myself not thinking of him too much as i used to. but then sometimes i cant help it. gosh this is so substantial.