horatio nelson chamile.

that is the name of a "build-a-bear" i made today with my sister's best friend's older sister and her friends for her birthday. yes. it was my first time making one of those confounded things. i like stuffed animals alot. i really do. but my favorite part is the fact that i get to name them. i love nicknames and giving names. but okay so today i watched 27 dresses not of my will because if it was up to me i would have watched there will be blood because i absloutely love paul dano and daniel day lewis. so anways i watched it and it was the typical chick flick romance. you know the kind were you know who she is gona end up with and that everything in that movie happens by chance[like her accidently forgetting her wallet in the cab and the guy unknowingly finding it..leading him to her] and the love around every corner with the happily ever after. but even though i dont really like watching those movies i seem to find myself drawn more and more into the fact that i want a life like in those movies. you know were the guy is in love with her from the first time he laid eyes on her and she is so not perfect or is protrayed to be not perfect but is. and i love the whole romantic chase of emotions, like when they are in love but something goes wrong in the middle of the story and they are separated from each other but they still love each other and you hear that one song that represents the whole feeling and mood of that scene while they have their own separate lives...like howie day's "collide"..or keane's "somewhere only we know". then for some other godly reason they realize that they still love each other or one of them does and stops the other from boarding a plane to their new life. and they stay together. thats when i wish my life was like one of those movies. because they make it seem like true love is real and can find it anywhere like a penny on the sidewalk. i mean they make it seem so wonderful with the theme music and the beatiful people. okay rite now im like about to take out my ben & jerrys and a copy of say anything i swear. so thats why really i try not to watch chick flicks because then i get dillusional and want to go on my search for true love in some random guy that i meet in a resturant and then dont see him untill i bump into him in college at some new york poetry lounge. but really i stick to my ifc flims and history channel.
oh god. i hate it when i like someone. so i never do.

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