the start.

its a tug-a-war.
one side, the other.
and the only one falling in the mud is me.
do i leave everything behind?
is this really me?





it could be.

HARK! thy hairy angels' wings.

its that time again. bring out the holly and run away from that mistletoe.
cause baby, its christmas.

i'm going to have to say,
it wasnt a bad christmas eve, ate some turkey and ham and tamales (yes, i know im a flamin' latina feevvaaa), talked to my HB mar mar, found myself something to do on the 25th (MADE MY DAY)and slighty professed my love. just kidding about the last one.
tomorrow, its opening presents time and i really dont care what i get im just grateful for today..like really it couldnt be better. well, it could be better. but i mean take what you have.
i feel kinda pointless. but not a bad pointless. just i have no point. no creative juices. no mojo.
oh well.



i love this man.
best christmas songs ever.

quote quote quotes.

i used like the simplest quote ever. and plus its on my profile.
HERE'S LOOKING AT YOU,KID.


really my intrepreatation of the quote is that well here is looking at you now. i guess? dunno.
its from one of the best movies ever. casablanca.
i was gona use one from harold and maude. but you needed to watch the movie to understand it.
life,life,life,life is good right now.
tomorrow: chili cheese fries (prolly) with momo.
then art with rose.
then sleep.
then english.
then rehersal.
then salon.
sleep.
and new day.
STILL NERVOUS AND EXCITED.

from colors of the wind..

to chongas to crazy bitch.

knotts was amazing! and chick-fil-a with wangwang and the other chongas started it off!
i truly think that i can trust most of chongos i went with and i am so glad that im closer to the wangster and nattles. a few more days and everything will come together. so excited. but at the same time im super nervous. i dunno what to expect. but i'll have my home dawgs to talk to it about.





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i feel so alive.

not infinite.
not alright.
not okay.
just alive.
breathing,talking,thinking..alive.

it feels so good. i've noticed the days are passing by so fast and i cannot keep up.
but the sensation is like driving on the freeway in the cold night air with your head out the window.
i dont know if its just me but that feels amazing.

NI TU NI NADIE. PUEDE CAMBIAR ME.
can't wait.

you're a bad one.

and your heart is still two sizes two small.


i wish the world can see who you really are.
or at least who you are to me.
walking around with a subtle smile and ratty hair.
seeming as if you are gods given epitome of the word nice.
but words and actions count way more then you give them credit to.
i hope one day you realize that no matter how much you build yourself up for others to see,
the statue will fall and all that will be left is the truth.
you might even get lucky and nobody will ever see it, cause honey, the world is blind.
but i threw away my rose colored glasses.

doce dias mas.
everything seemed to work out fine.

my feet is my only carriage,

So Ive got to push on through.
But while Im gone, I mean:
Everythings gonna be all right!

weekend cap-up-

friday:home fall asleep.
saturday: SAT, eagle eye with family,freak out sleep.
sunday: swapswap,dress shopping with the terrible two SBF crew, calm down/no doubt and sleep.

right now my life is a book shelf. a book falls out of place and messes up the alphabetized routine. disorder. and then the book goes back into its slot and everything seems alright untill the next one decides to get misplaced. or i decide to get a new book. either way, someway,someshape things will be okay just reading along.